#they sabotage eachother every chance they get

[shmowderslut]

Very sorry to blorbo tag, but is this not literally the haruspex and the bachelor?

they're divorced. they weren't even married. this isn't romantic. they're definitely not platonic. they're cinematic parallels. they are fighting the narrative. they slowly built their relationship. they rely and trust each other. they were aggressively thrown into this. they want to bite each other's head off. they kill for each other. they live for each other. they should kiss. they would put each other in a blender. they're insane. they don't even realise. they're fully aware it.

[ryukatters]

def gojo, but also toji and maybe y’all are like competing assassins who run into eachother sometimes

⟡ word count: ~700

⟡ a/n: your brain is so big

⟡ Based on this ask

Your target is right ahead of you.

Just a few more feet, the two of you will be away from any wandering eyes and security cameras— and you’ll be in the clear to take him out with a single blow.

It’s an older gentleman— a local politician, you’ve been told, with connections to the black market. Made a few people working underground unhappy with some new laws passed. So you’ve been ordered to execute him.

You get jobs like this all the time. You don’t necessarily like what you do, but you don’t necessarily hate it either. It’s something that brings food to the table, allows you a roof over your head. Despite your unconventional career, it’s actually pretty stable, given your high success rate and gracious recommendations from satisfied clients.

Stable, as long as you’re the one actually doing the killing.

You blink once and suddenly your politician has a bullet going straight through his skull.

“You’ve gotta be faster than that, sweetheart.”

The politician’s body hits the floor with a dull thud. You hardly pay attention because all you hear is the rush of blood in your eardrums and all you can see is that annoying smirk on that stupid face of his.

Damn him.

You stomp towards Toji angrily, pointing an accusing finger into his (well-built) chest, “That was my target, you freak!”

“Was it? Well that’s too bad. Looks like you’ll have to pick up another job elsewhere,” he sneers. “Think you could make a pretty penny with those tits of yours.” He stares down at them pointedly. You feel your cheeks burn from humiliation.

“Oh fuck off, Fushiguro.”

“I’d much rather fuck you.”

Toji Fushiguro: a quick, money hungry, infamous assassin. Or, as you often call him— a pain in the ass. Your ass specifically, since he seems to have a tendency to sabotage all of your missions.

He’d argue that he simply has a penchant for pretty things, and you’re a high he has yet to come down from.

“You’re deplorable,” you spit, arms crossing over your chest. “A waste of space. Are you really so broke that you feel the need to steal someone else’s kill? Maybe you’re the one that needs to pick up a gig at the local strip club.”

Your words do nothing— they bounce off him as if he were a wall of solid steel. He might as well be. Nothing could ever penetrate Toji, physically and emotionally.

“So everyone can see the scratches you leave on my back?” He sneers, taking a step closer. He smells like sweat and cheap cologne. It’s intoxicating. “Dunno why you’re pretendin’ to hate me s’much with the way you’re creamin’ on my cock all the time.”

“Maybe because that’s the only redeeming quality you have,” you bite back. Toji merely chuckles, as if the venom spewing from your lips lacks virulence. And maybe it does.

“You’re pretty spunky today, baby. You know how much it turns me on when you put up a fight.”

You let out a growl, swinging your arm to punch him, but he’s gone from your sight before you even get the chance to land a blow. That’s the second time you’ve missed tonight.

He appears behind you before you can react.

Toji presses a kiss to the nape of your neck, relishing in the way you suppress a shiver as he leans down to his whisper in your ear, “Gotta be faster than that, sweetheart.”

You hate him. You remind yourself that every single time you see him.

“Bring that attitude with you tonight and see where that gets you,” he murmurs, allowing himself a rough nip at your jugular— a little taste of the inevitable. “You know where to find me.”

The words ring in your mind, each syllable being burned into your hippocampus with every passing second. You make quick work of delivering the corpse to your handler before you’re off to find a certain assassin.

Toji Fushiguro would ruin your life. Yet for some reason, you can’t find it in you to push him away when he calls.

[xiphiaarts]

Still solidifying the relationship between Starscream and Megatron for my au

I don't know the fine details of it yet, But I know I don't want to go the 'Starscream gets pimpslapped for every small mistake' route

I rather go for like the corrupt military official route, who may very well be sabotaging his own affiliation in order to have it's people turn against their leader, and elect him, the one who supposedly knew Megatron didn't have to steel for leadership all along, as new ruler (Also known as Starscream talking sweet in Megatron's face and talking shit about him when he isn't around.)

Soundwave and his cassettes are spared Starscream backstabbing musings, his loyalty to Megatron and the decepticon cause poses a threat to Starscreams plans

I also like to think Starscream wants to lead based off of the idea of being loved/feared by all, being seen as a revolutionary like Megatron, untouchable like him too, though he usually lacks the compassion to be the kind of leader Megatron started out as, the compassion Megatron has slowly but surely lost.

I also like to think another part of it is the idea of 'if I can just get x thing I'll be good enough' or 'if I can just get x thing I'll be happy', he's tunnel visioned onto ruling the decepticons as his object of happiness, he assumes the role comes with power, respect, and safety, but never considers factors like maximizing your troops survival or an end goal *if* the decepticons ever manage to truly trump the autobots.

He wants the power, but he has no righteous goal he wishes to see through, he has no guilt for those weaker than him because he was never fighting for them, only for the chance of being the one on the throne and calling the shots, to be the one wearing the crown

I can't imagine if they (the cons) win Starscream will be satisfied, there will always be a bigger fish, such leadership won't make him happy so there will always be another 'x thing' for him to pursue, it will never end unless he changes his goals entirely.

He isn't in the cons to make a difference, he's there to highjack what power and notoriety Megatron has achieved with his own two hands by soaring straight to the top with little effort besides his manipulation. He works hard but he works hard for his own interests and nothing more, he figures he's done being used and he has the right to use everyone else, like some twisted sense of vengeance

I like to think only after Starscream manages to kill off most of the decepticon ranks does Megatron's trust in him waver, even if he doesn't say anything to Starscreams face, he knows of the whisperings Starscream spreads about him (he's been told many a time to ensure the loyalty of his second in command by other cons, hes not nearly as sneaky as he thinks he is) But Megatron keeps him close to keep an eye on him, to keep him sharp in the face of fake friends, and to utilize what resourcefulness Starscream does posses.

This is why plans may be made or revised in the absence of Starscream, his second in command left out of the loop to make it more difficult for him to orchestrate decepticon failures. He knows of plan A, But not plan B Through Q, the backups Incase something interferes, autobot or traitor.

Though Megatron does bestow him with 'decepticon hospitality', the base layer of hostility all decepticons treat eachother with, he doesn't particularly aim his frustration at him, he more sees his disloyalty as a challenge, a way to keep his processor on its toes and to expect every bad thing.

His punishment may come in the forms of suicide missions, but the wonder that is Starscream always returns from them, bruised, beaten, maybe missing a few operatives assigned to him, maybe even dead. But he always returns

That's all for now, I'm still thinking about it, thanku for coming to my Ted talk

[aldritch-ao3]

(person who asked about toji and naoya) I'm really glad you feel the same way as me when it comes to their relationship, i honestly thought i'd only get a couple sentences, so thank you so much for that lengthy answer. Also with the 'naoya being an example of what gojo could've been' thing, i think that's really interesting. Cause i've seen something similar be explored before, with people writing naoya and gojo being raised as almost rivals of eachother, but they also seemed to glorify naoya in a way, so i took it more as their own intepretation rather than a reflection of how things would have been in canon. Back to your point with gojo and naoya tho, thinking about it more, you're really onto something there, cause kid gojo sorta acts like naoya?? still different, but the similarities are there. i also just realised toji seriously affected both of their lives. I can't imagine how naoya would have been had he not met toji. It just feels like he wouldn't be naoya. Christ, you were so right about toji haunting everyone. It's funny how someone regarded as nothing impacted so much of the lives of those who are regarded as everything. (you may be america's strongest run-on sentence soldier, but i'm britain's. we will compete to see who gains the title of world's strongest run-on sentence soldier one day..)

omg cross-sea solidarity ... why would we compete when we could instead join forces to make runon sentences that would make english majors puke

i case you couldn't tell by [gestures to playback] i have a lot of big big feelings about the zen'in clan in general, and naoya - honestly, feelings i didnt have before starting it that i've come around to the more i study these guys under a microscope! i dont know if the comparisons between young gojo and young naoya are intentional, but to me they're very much there - each is the prodigal genius heir of their clan, inheriting a genetic technique that sets them apart from a young age and has them both praised and isolated for this technique. each at a young age is egotistical and carries themself above others because that's been treated as outright fact by the people around them. gojo is exposed to other viewpoints and experiences that allow him to grow beyond it, though aspects of that mindset remain in him they don't take a malicious form - naoya isn't given that social opportunity, and instead stuck in an echo chamber that eventually makes him even worse than the people around him. they obviously aren't 1:1 but i do really think there's a comparison to be drawn

and imho the zen'in clan as a whole are kind of a microcosm of jujutsu society, where even those in privileged positions in the social hierarchy suffer and live less fulfilling lives for it. literally none of them seem happy. naoya is one of the most insecure, bitter, unhappy characters we meet imho, feeling challenged by and overcompensating to extreme measures to every single perceived threat and slight. we see much of the same with ogi, honestly, with one key difference - naoya doesn't seem to have anything or anyone that would make him happy, while ogi has a wife and children and yet self-sabotages every chance at a meaningful life and meaningful human connection because of his fixation on rank and power. his family is just an extension of himself, and therefore disappointing and discarded as worthless because they don't meet his expectations.

their hierarchy prevents a lot of meaningful connections from being formed with ideas of rank and power and honour and tradition getting in the way of them. not in a way that excuses the way a lot of these guys are, but as a whole this is a generational and societal issue as much as it is an individual one, and its noteworthy that someone like gojo, in contrast, turned out as relatively well-adjusted and normal as he did - under the right circumstances, he very well may have been much worse. isnt that just what all of their stories are? under the right circumstances, almost anyone could have ended up like geto, or like naoya. to me jjk is a series where theres a sense of nurture taking precedent over nature very often, and all the spectacular ways one's nature can remain unshaken and unchanged even in the face of that. or something.

this isn't even what your ask was about. i feel like a lot of this pertains to toji in interesting ways but also theres very little to be said about toji that hasn't been already. something something nature of cycles and how his breaking out of it had ripples across the entire world because the clan is representative of the world he was a part of something the way you must break tradition before it breaks you whatever.

[dana-chan-the-control-brain]

Non-SAMS fan here and honestly, you are so valid for your thoughts.

These are robots. They do not have the capacity to commit *ncest because they do not have a biological connection or relationship.

It's no different than meeting someone who is "like a sibling" to you and later (or even previously) sleeping together. It's not actual blood related siblings having that kind of relationship.

Also, these aren't real people. They don't exist.

Hope this helps those who might be confused about the topic.

Ah yes! What I all said can be applied to Fnaf and the DCA fandom as a whole

It's honestly why I reblog some Sun x Moon stuff, and some Sun and Moon as brothers stuff. (sometimes I forget to tag cause im in a hurry or scrolling on my work break)

Cause to me, what they are depends on how they view each other and how they define their relationship.

I mean, Sun and Moon could have just a co-workers relationship, but I think the fnaf fandom is in the minority on that take.

Like we all want them to be friends, or some semblance of a relationship to eachother, and to me, it's whatever the context of the story needs.

For example, in my story, Sun and Moon are NOT brothers yet.

They are very annoying roommates who are trying to sabotage eachother every chance they get.... yet they would be devastated if the other were to leave. They don't know what they are yet. They just know they need eachother and hate eachother. They're figuring it out.

[fennel-tea-and-nightshade]

Eli and murdering

Again, Eli has no actual reason to murder at this point. For her it was a weird coping strategy to feel less small. She kinda put herself into "god" shoes and taking mortals any agecy and control. It was also about making others feel how small she has felt when her trauma happend. Not only reflective to the god trauma but also reflective how small and helpless Asklepios has made her feel......

Why would she do this to another mortal after Limos? All she was shown was gods traumatizing mortals again and again and again.... She wished someone would "understand" her pain yet she also wished this fate would not happen to any other mortal....and yet it did

Eli only does things when she has a reason too. Causing other mortals more pain has no point to her anymore. It doesn't prove anything. It doesn't stop the suffering and it won't help mortals has a whole.

She wants mortals to be free. If they want to cause pain to eachother, so be it, but she will not part take in anything that doesn't serve her.

To be honest, I think my girl is just sooo over it. She's so over self sabotaging every chance of connection she gets. Connections are important.

[valictini]

im sorry im a lil dumb 😭 but i saw ur meme about not attacking the other defenders during tri color battles in splatoon and i dont get what the advantage is to not kill them and try for the signal yourself. do u mind explaining like im 5

It’s ok you’re not dumb! Nintendo didn’t really do a great job at fully explaining this mode! (So much so that when making research on it for this post, I learned a few things too, which also explains why it took me so much time to answer this)

I actually was thinking about posting basics of tricolor after seeing so many tags not understanding why it was important for the attackers to cooperate, so thank you for the question!

SPLATOON 3 TRICOLOR BATTLE GUIDE

What is the tricolor battle mode?

It's a modified turf war mode that features special stages and 3 teams: 1 defending team of 4 people, and 2 attacking duos.

They happen during splatfest, which means, each team is competing to have the highest score and usually fight eachother. However, in the context of tricolor battles, the 2 attacking duos are asked to cooperate despite being on different teams. As of a few so splatfest ago, anyone can be defending or attacking. It is not tied to the halftime ranking anymore.

To win, both attacking duos can try to use the ultra signals that the defending team has to protect.

What is an ultra signal ?

The ultra signal is an object at the center of the map that the attacker duos need to reach, then need to hold for a certain amount of time to fill it up and secure it.

Every attempt at filling the ultra signal builds up and makes the next attempts shorter and shorter, BUT there's a delay between each attempt. The attackers can secure a maximum of 2 signals per match.

When filling up the signal, you are completely vulnerable, and it's the defending team's job to take you out and make sure no attacker secures a signal.

Why do we want to secure an ultra signal?

When secured, the ultra signal creates a sprinkler spraying a lot of ink on your side of the map (and then at the center of the map if you secure both) That means you won't have to worry about inking the zone around the sprinklers for the rest of the match, which lets you focus on putting pressure on the defending team by covering THEIR ink. That's the reason they don't want you to secure it.

Why do you want to cover enemy ink?

The team who covers the most turf by the end of the match wins, like normal turf war. The catch is, if either attacker duo wins, the other duo wins too, which means that when you’re an attacker, you should focus on covering the defending team's ink first and foremost. This way, you maximise the chances of an attacking duo winning.

Ok but how many points do I get when I win? And when I lose?

When losing, all players get 0 point + individual ink coverage score

When defenders win, they all get 9000 points + individual ink coverage score

When attackers win, the winning duo gets 6000 points while the other duo gets 5000 (you get nothing regarding your ink coverage score) Each duo also gets a separate bonus regarding signals: 300 points per failed attempt at getting the signal OR 2500 points per signal secured.

However, the halftime report gives multipliers for all teams depending on whether or not they're in the lead.

The leading team (ex: Team Power during last splatfest) gets a 1.5 multiplier when they win as defenders.

The 2nd and 3rd teams (ex: Team Wisdom and Courage) get a 1.5 multiplier when winning as attackers.

So when you're on the 2nd or 3rd team, it quickly becomes MUCH more important to win as an attacker than to fight over the signals.

TL;DR: As attackers, securing signals does give you a bonus, but not as much as WINNING (especially when you have the multiplier on your side). Signals are mostly a tool that makes it easier to beat the defending team.

Sabotaging the other duo not only delays the next opportunity to get a signal, but it also frustrates your allies and make them NOT want to cooperate with you/actively try to kill you.

In turn, it makes it even harder to secure the signals and easier for the defenders to overwhelm you and make you lose.

You could say that there are some matches that actually call for sabotaging the other duo, or that you should only start cooperating with the other duo after securing both signals for your own team. But I think you need to take into account the fun factor of it all.

Why should I care about being a team player?

Do you actually care who wins the most points or who wins the splatfest? And if so, is it worth inflicting a frustrating match onto the other duo? Are you really having fun when confronted with the same aggressive tactics from the others? (aka, getting splatted when trying to get the signal and seeing the other duo steal it from you, getting snipped by the other duo while they’re not even dominating the match, getting spawn camped…) If you DO enjoy it, then I guess go for it but I think you’re missing out on a much, much more satisfying way to play that simply involves cooperating from the beginning to the end of the match.

Getting such a match is a rare occurrence, unfortunately, because most people don’t even understand that you’re supposed to cooperate in some way, but it is SO worth it, because when you find another duo that actively helps you, you don’t care about the points or splatfest results, you’re just having plain fun.

Hopefully, by explaining it all, more people will be ready to be team players for next splatfest, so here I go.

What do I do if I want to be a team player?

- Try NOT to kill your teammates at all (accidents happen, of course, but overall, you should always try to assist them)

- Try NOT to ink the other duo’s side of the map and focus on covering defenders’ ink as much as possible (Remember, you want the defenders to lose! If the other duo si dominating and the match is coming to an end, try NOT to cover their ink at all, even if it’s on your side of the map, to ensure that they win)

- If the other duo is attempting to secure a signal, DEFEND THEM (because the faster you all secure the signals, the faster you can focus on overwhelming the defenders!)

To end this, I’ve seen so many tags saying something along the lines of ‘I’m not touching tricolor’ or ‘I played 2 matches and i quickly went back to normal mode’ which I assume is because of the lack of encouraged cooperation between the attacking teams.

Which is sad because I’ve had SO much more fun playing tricolor with cooperating teammates. It makes winning all the more satisfying when you can tell they got your back and you got theirs. It’s just really, really nice!

I wish Nintendo would modify the rules so that any signal that’s secured by the attackers gives less points but goes to both teams. I’m sure you’d need to balance out other things to make it work, but I feel like it would help a LOT.

[spokelseskladden]

Hey, I'm sorry to bother you, I just wanted to ask if you still have ideas about the Time Travel AU (the CK one) cause I've been a little obsessed with it (I really love you art ♥️)

Omg CK time travel AU... I'm so happy people still like it, I haven't thought about it in so long :') sadly I don't have any new art of it, but I can add a few notes

The whole idea was always about Miguel and Robby from the end of season 4 waking up around the start of season 2. Neither one knows the other is in the same boat, and it creates some problems as both try to change events in their own ways, thus making different situations harder to predict. They also go about it the wrong way until they get Demetri on board, like they focus on the wrong things to solve the problems.

I was always imagining Miguel waking up on the day he gets his braces removed, because everything will suck for him for a while but at least he'll get to experience that twice ( my people who wore braces will know what I'm talking about)✌️✌️

Before Robby and Miguel figure out they're time travelling buds they try to sabotage each others non-existent relationships. This makes Sam think Miguel still is a jealous douchebag, Tory thinks Robby is...weird. basically, those relationships are soooo dead. I like Robby/Tory (controversial, I know) but it would be complicated. There's a chance for them being endgame, but I'm on the fence about it, cause the point of this AU was more about friendships, especially for Robby.

This one drawing I made where Robby and Miguel sort of talk about juvie/the paralysis was supposed to take place after this big fight they had. Because they're not friendly towards eachother after finding out they're both from the future. They're forced together due to the circumstances, but there's a lot of tension between them that culminates into this big fight where they nearly repeat the event they're trying to avoid. It shakes them to their core, and they realise they don't want this -> they try to talk about it and figure out that they have more in common than they thought.

This was supposed to be the turning point in the au. Pre them making up, everything just went from bad to worse, every situation they tried to fix ended with something else going straight to hell, but once they become friends? Everything suddenly seems to go smoothly. Until it doesn't. (enter fucking Hawk and the feelings they didn't take into account. Because they were all clueless about it.)

Hawk is in love with Miguel. This is true in all universes, I take no criticism on this lol. The AU was never supposed to be migueli centric, but it makes him extra jealous of Robby. Like, if the guy you like suddenly start sneaking around with someone you both used to talk shit about, keeping secrets, blowing off a potential girlfriend for this person, and now they suddenly seems to get along a bit too well? Yeah he thinks they have something going on. Which sucks for him, cause it's one thing if Miguel can't like him back because he's straight, if he's actually into guys as well? Ouch. It's a total misreading of the situation, but Hawk isn't going to jump to time travelling buddies as the first answer :/ There's a lot of hurt feelings here, and his go to coping mechanism is ofc anger and overreactions. Miguel is so used to Hawk listening to him (especially in his champ era) he didn't ever count on him doing the exact opposite in order to spite him. Cause he kinda...took Hawk for granted I guess 😔

While I made a joke about Hawk hitting on Tory (because she never got with Miguel there's nothing stopping him from doing that) I never planned on them getting together. They would go on one date maximum, Tory would realise they're way better as friends because they would've had a toxic fucking dynamic, and break it off. Which also makes Hawk spiral, but this ain't about him. Tory hangs with Aisha more because she's not with Miguel, and they have their own theories on what's going on with Miguel (and hawk tbh). I think they're the ones who accidentally starts this whole "Miguel and Robby might be...👀👀👀👀" Thing. They also realise what Hawk's deal is.

Sam v. Tory is waaaay more focused on Aisha, as it always should've been imo. I don't think their rivalry gets as bloody, and I think all three can learn some important lessons way faster. Also Aisha never disappears, because there's no school fight.

The adults are the biggest challenge, because neither Miguel nor Robby knows what the hell they were up to most of the time, and they're the ones who creates the mess. Miguel is from the end of s4, so from his perspective his relationship with Johnny is strained, while Johnny has no clue why their dynamic feels so off now(when he finds out Miguel and Robby are friends now, he assumes it's because of his shit relationship with Robby. Which isn't far off from the truth, once Miguel and Robby start talking they actually bond quite a bit over failed fathers/father figures which in turn puts even more strain on the Johnny-Miguel dynamic)

Originally I was considering Miguel being in a similar accident in the end, but under different circumstances. I'm not sure if it would work, but there's something about doomed narratives that compels me.

At least one character will be disappointed in Robby and Miguel for not even trying to win the lottery once they find out they're from the future. Robby and Miguel say they were a bit preoccupied with stopping the karate-gang-wars. Idk which character this should be but let's be real, it's Bert.

[shy-the-schizophrenic]

How do I do this? How do I get all these feelings out? How do I tell you this when it's so hard? I was planning on leaving you. Your deceit. It's too much, when I've been so open with you. I feel like we're not on the same level. For me? It's you. It's always been you. I went through what I went through so I can find you. Every heartbreak, every abandonment. All the crying my self to sleep at night and never ending empty ache I feel in my heart. It all lead up to you. It taught me how to love as deeply as I do. To give everything with all my heart. You needed that love. You've been starved that real, raw, unconditional love. You've been hurt like me. Your heartache led you to me. So you can feel that love. To be wrapped up safely in my arms when it feels like the world is crashing down on you. With me you'll always have a partner. You'll be loved for everything that you are. Accepted. I don't want to give up on us. It's beautiful. You, me, we've fought so hard to find happiness and I know you have that happiness with me. We fight, cry, hurt eachother because we're both terrified of one of us leaving. We self sabotage. But Kade. I don't want to leave. I never did. I get mad, I feel some type of way when I split. But I'm here kade. I promised you forever and that's what I want to give you. You're everything I've ever wanted. Everything I ever dreamed of. I'm a beautiful girl. I can have anyone I want. I chose you. I still choose you. Only if you choose me. And choose me every day for the rest of our lives. Even when I'm so difficult. The love I deserve and need is the love you give. We're so compatible. We feel so strongly and that's why we butt heads. We're both so headstrong that it's hard to see where eachother are coming from. We always fix it though. We come out stronger each time. I know it seems like it's beating us down but it really isn't. Every disagreement, every fight we have we learn something new about eachother. After that we adjust accordingly as to not hurt eachother in the same way twice. What we have is amazing kade and I just want you to fight for us because I know you know it too. What we have is unlike anything we've ever had before. It's new territory. It's not something to just give up. Not for anyone. No matter their looks because they aren't us. We will never experience what we have again if we choose to walk away. No one else is you, no one else is me. We're meant for eachother. I don't believe in fate or destiny. But I do with you. My love for you breaks my whole belief system. I don't believe in life after death. Just nothing. Only I want to believe so bad that I can be with you for eternity. Somewhere, happy, in love forever. You caused a ripple in my life and I'm going with it. I want to go anywhere you take me. I don't care where. You're home. You're my safe space. I don't know if I can forgive you yet. I know I can if you show me I'm what you want. Not for now, not for a couple years, but forever. Do you still want marriage and children with me? Will your actions repeat when it gets hard? Because it will. That's what I need to know. When it gets hard I will never not choose you. Will you not choose me again or will you choose me and stay with me no matter what life throws at us? Please take this break and show me that even though we're not together that you still choose me. Yesterday when you told me you want to do everything you can to fix this, fix us, to gain my trust back. I looked into your eyes and I believed you. I wasn't going to give you the chance. I had no plan to which is why I was treating this break like a breakup. It was to me. Only seeing the pain on your face and the regret in your voice made me want to give you that chance. If I give you my heart again and you choose to take it, please don't break it.

[kazewhara]

augh.... zuzu youre killing me ..... best friends to enemies to lovers.... the angst potential the sheer TRAGEDY......... id imagine that even tho you hate the idea of going thru with the raid, you hate the idea of not being there more because with anyone else leading the troops, how are you to make sure kazuha at least escapes unscathed? of course, you never tell him that. after this, after seeing him see you on the estate-made-battlefield, after seeing the /expression he had/... you could never shame yourself(more than you already have) by subjecting him to your presence again.

drowning in your shame, regret, and self loathing at this point, you spend your next years playing out the role the shogunate wants you to. you are jaded, you feel faded, and the dead end position you have in the army is the only thing you let yourself do anymore. nothing feels the same since the raid, and everything feels dulled by the monotony of just going through the motions every day.

its at this point that id want to set up the reader for a well and truly redemption arc taking place during the events of the inazuma archon quest in game.... maybe you meet him again after he joins the traveler with beidou in the skirmish at nazuchi beach, and kazuha finally has the chance to get the answers he didnt ask for that night during the raid. you two are hostile to eachother, kazuha because, well, you were the downfall of the kaedehara clan, someone he thought of as a friend and even had feelings for betraying him just like that. but you? youre so convinced that youre bad for him that you cant bring yourself to drop the 'perfect tenryou commission general' act. its a mercy to him, you think, to make things simple, to make it so that he can dismiss you as a bad person from his past, to push him away so he never has to see the ugly thing youve become because of the ugly thing you did to him. so he never has to know that secretly, hes still the person you think of the most. (you cant help but think that you dont even deserve to think upon him fondly anymore, but you cant stop either.)

kazuha's arrival at inazuma after years of not seeing him in person shakes you in ways you cant describe. after nazuchi beach, for the first time in years, you cry in bed that night. the self sabotaging monotonous life you had set up for yourself suddenly seems so bleak compared to the possibility that is kazuha being in your life again. you think, you KNOW that you shouldnt think this way, you dont deserve it after all, but you cannot stop yourself from cradling the sharp spark of yearning that has rekindled itself after seeing him again.

kazuha...... kazuha knows that something isnt right with how you were acting when he interrogated you at nazuchi beach. he was your best friend, he Knows your tells, that you were lying somehow when you told him that you raided the kaedehara estate because the shogun told you to, plain and simple, that your past friendship didnt mean so much as he thought it did and that the shoguns orders are more important than anything else to you. a part of him is upset that somehow after all these years you still are lying to him and being dishonest, but a smaller part that he cant seem to quell hopes that the thing you were lying about was the part where you said you felt nothing for him the whole time.

this is already long as fuck and i dont want to clog your inbox with a whole fic but ideally this would end with you being dishonorably discharged from the tenryou militia for confronting kujou sara and the raiden shogun about what happened to the kaedehara estate and Everything Else theyve done being wrong after you get back together with kazu and have your character development moments together ALSO ASKJFDBAKJFBKSDJF SORRY I KNOW THIS IS SO LONG BUT LOVERS TRAGEDY ALWAYS HITS A SPECIAL SPOT IN MY HEART ESPECIALLY WHEN THERES A HAPPY ENDING SO I KINDA RAN WITH IT SORRYYYYYYYY

-🌲

MY CHEST???? I'M LITERALLY CLUTCHING MY CHEST RN LIKE I'M SO INVESTED HNNNNGGG THIS IS PROBABLY ONE OF MY FAVORITE TROPES EVER LIKE THE WAY WE LIE AND THE WAY KAZUHA HAS HOPE AND FUCCKSKAJSJDJNDSJ)$&×*@@^@@;#@,,#&##,@,,#,

THE NOISES COMING OUT OF MY MOUTH ARE UNGODLY

OKAY SO WHEN'S THE FIC COMING? 😁 I'M YOUR BIGGEST FAN, WHEN WHEN WHEN :DD

[nightswithkookmin]

Hello there😊, wanna ask you a question that is roaming in my head!! and raising my anxiety. These days, we are only getting the videos and the photos that Hybe/BH wants to show us. Most of these are edited but sometimes I feel that something is wrong with Jimin(don't get me wrong). Like it's always JK who is showing much affection to Jimin but JM became kinda quite in Jikook. What do you think about it? Does Jimin want a break from their relationship or it's just because he doesn't want to show us the truth? ?

It's just my thoughts and these thoughts are giving me stress!! I love them so much🥺that's why I'm tensed.

Lolololololololololol

I agree with a lot of your observations here but do you really think JK acts like a happy bunny these days in his Fantasia side swoop strutting all over the place like a 1955 gay man because he thinks his boyfriend is about to break up with him???

Jimin is a bit introverted in my opinion and if you aren't used to seeing that side of him you might think something is off with him or that he is sad or angry or this or that every now and then.

Anything could be inducing his moods- including but not limited to his relationship with JK. Personally I don't think JK is the one leaning forward in their relationship this time around. It's Jimin.

Similar to how Jungkook is not always introverted. We could be reading that as him leaning forward in their dynamic if we not careful. As I've said a couple of times in my blogs no one is a 100% anything. We are all introverted to a degree or extroverted to a degree and sometimes with Jikook that plays out in their dynamic.

When you say lately it's always JK showing much affection to Jimin- I love it but

Don't let the PJMs catch you chilee. They finna jump you. Lmho.

JK does show love and affection to JM. That's a fact. Jikook is not a one sided relationship. So thank you for at least seeing that.

If you feel there's something off with Jimin then JK taking care of him and showing much affection to him should be the appropriate response. No? There is nothing wrong with him taking the lead and catering to JM especially since Jimin often gets berated and attacked when he does the catering to in their dynamic.

Let's normalize Jikook loving eachother.

Personally I don't think JK is the one leaning forward in their relationship. In spite of the introverted phase he is in, I think Jimin is the one piloting things this season post the October era. I mean it's pretty much obvious.

Jimin has been on his Jikook agenda for a hot minute now. Why do you think antis are mad?

Not to be that person, but I think I pretty much theorized when 'October' was happening that whoever was 'at fault' was gonna come swinging hard on their Jikook agenda when that phase was over. We are in the post October phase. Do the maths.

And I know a lot of people have been mad at Jk for acting 'cold' and and aloof, 'uncomfortable' blah blah blah but I just think he is just chill and laid back. He put the ball in Jimin's court and it's up to him to decide what they do and how they interact especially with their glass closet now and I think that's been weighing on him too. I'll talk more about this in the Minimoni post. Sigh.

For Jimin, he's gone through a phase of reevaluation and reassessment since October. He bought a second house. He's talked about cutting off friends, trying to find his voice or try new styles- something deep and melancholic, listening to emotional songs, working out, trying to build muscles etc.

There's a lot happening around him too. For one his members keep churning music in a language he is barely conversant in. That can be challenging especially for someone like him who doesn't like to do things half assed.

He is taking on new challenges- don't know how well he is or was mentally prepared for it. For someone like Tae and Jk who had already dabbled in English Albums and singles I think they are pretty much happy about the direction the band is headed in and were very much prepared to take on this challenge.

I think they are all challenging themselves as a group in this era.

I'm not sure how he feels about the others constantly talking about that they are old and can't do this and can't do that- Jimim is 25. I don't think he is that old. He loves his youth and loves to celebrate it and make the most of it. Young forever.

I can imagine the toll it might take on him to constantly hear that he is old and can't do this or that by his members and netizens.

He loves the stage. Loves to dance. I mean look at how hard he went with his dance in the PTD MV. Hopefully in 2022 things can go back to normal.

Bangtan went from we are getting old to we are fossils in 0.2 seconds it gives me whiplash.

What I'm saying is, there is a lot going on in his personal and professional life as well as his social life. All of that could be contributing to his mood lately.

As to whether he wants a break from his relationship I think he is the best person to answer that.

People who don't know what they want or who subconsciously want to end their relationships often self sabotage their relationships in their waking life. Sometimes too they are just insecure and immature and don't know how to keep the things they want and end up sabotaging themselves. I do think JM went through phases like that in the past- you know which eras I'm talking about.

But I do think he is in the drivers seat now and the ball is in his court to decide whatever he wants from their relationship and how he wants to work it.

I think Kook is equally in a place where he would be ok with whatever Jimin decides- granted he would shed a few tears and write sad songs if Jimin decides to break up with him. He and Taylor Swift about to be Bffs. Lol.

Wow, my chest hurts. Sweet baby Jesus bind Jikook together with some Gorilla glue cos I can't if they break up for good😭😭😭

If Jimin wants Jk to be doing the flowers and the trips and the birthday posts and the songs, and the coded tweets and Weverse posts, I think he would gladly do it.

I don't think Jk is afraid to speak Jimin's love language. If Jimin doesn't want him, his loss.

Please I'm hurting. I don't like that😫😫😫

Jk can be a lot. He can be intense and yes I do think that used to overwhelm Jimin sometimes especially when he was constantly lowkey high key borderline outing their relationship left right left every chance he got💀

But dude is repented😒

Like I said, I think he's been pretty much laid back and chill for a while now. Nothing intense and 'problematic.' You can tell he's been going out of his way to not fuck things up for his own sanity, the group's and especially JM's sakes. Why then would Jimin want a break from him🤺

FREE JK.

This don't look like someone who wants a break anywhere to me but I guess time will tell. You just never know with Jimin.

You let this man tattoo your initials on his ring finger scaring off potential suitors only for you to turn around and dump him that's just wickedness🙁

You have this man wrapped around your finger jumping through hoops literally for you what more do you want him to do???? He better not start his shenanigans. He is getting wedded to that man whether he likes it or not. They are doing the whole church and traditional wedding thingy I swear to God🤺

Do I have to remind him he promised to go to the Moon with JK? Sir don't trigger me this early morning.

I'm finna channel my inner tuktukker on him and drag him to the alter kicking and screaming. Jungkook deserves his happily ever after too. It's 2021. They both better leave that ghetto shit behind. I knew I should have ordered that Gorilla glue. The fuck!

GOLDY

[ringmyheart]

Can I request Vin Jin boyfriend headcanons and some fluff? (You don't have to force yourself)

(This and the other vin jin rq were merged!)

Honestly the way I see it, it doesn’t matter if you’re a very calm person or outgoing person. No matter what this relationship is gonna end up being considerably chaotic

He ropes you into everything he does. Doesn’t matter if u r a design student or an architecture student or if ur on the opposite side of the school from him, u r practically in his class. Dating him is like signing a contract sealing away ur own life bc he makes it a point to be ALWAYS w u

In class he doesn’t gaf if the teacher has ur seat on the other end of class, he is somehow finding a way to sit next to u against ur will or not. And when the teacher moves u two away from eachother INTENTIONALLY bc of this, he is threatening whoever happened to sit next to u to trade seats w him. He will go as far as to dress up as them to make it look like they’re them to be next to u and he’s so dramatic ab it.... being away from u felt like u were star crossed lovers whom the world was fiercely against

And if UR against this cuz ur tired of getting in trouble in class, or if you reject any of his advances, he’s gonna be really, really, really offended. He will at first sputter and be kinda shy and embarrassed about it, before he goes “fine! Have fun on your own without me, the greatest thing in your fucking life!”

He move seats back and will glare at you periodically every five minutes to pavlov dog you so that every five minutes every day, even when he’s not there, you feel the burning stare of vin jin

If you’re his s/o, he’ll buy you a matching pair of sunglasses so ur the freshest looking couple around Seoul (they’re hideous and thick but he thinks u look fly)

The glasses don’t have nearly as many layers as his does for himself so u can see, and u wonder how he managed to make them just as bulky and if he did it on purpose to sabotage u. Like “did u make my glasses purposefully ugly so no one else will want me?”

U have to dodge a punch after saying anything like that ab his fashion decisions LMAOAO

He’s rlly proud of u two matching. With the glasses and anything in general. He’ll make you wear a jacket matching his, or the same shoes and he will stop people in the hall and be like “wait. Notice anything cool ab us today?? Cooler than normal??”

And when they don’t respond he boasts “that’s right!! Me and my other half r matching. Look at us and weep, losers.” He thinks u two look so good....... if ur enthusiastic ab wearing matching things too he is elated u have to pray that tomorrow he won’t show up w another “if lost return to Vin Jin” “I’m Vin Jin” pair of jackets or anything of the like bc it happens SO OFTEN

And on the topic of sharing when it’s cold he likes to share jackets and blankets w u. Ur desks r moved by eachother by vin jin himself and u two share one blanket over u and shiver bc he just likes it, sharing w u plus he’s slightly warmer. And yes if you guys had indivizual blankets you would be warmer, but u guys have to struggle together he doesn’t care what anyone says (yes even ur protests ur sharing that one blanket wether he has to wrap it around u himself and tear up the one u brought on ur own or what”

He is so blind in love that he cannot tell when u guys suck at stuff. Like if ur in the wrong he doesnt care ur RIGHT and he’s taking that to the grave. He can belittle u and call u out but if someone else says ur in the wrong it’s on sight

Will die protecting ur name even when ur the one who was genuinely wrong

He forces u to make a beat for him to rap to. He loves rapping and wants to enjoy it w u, so ur forcefed YouTube videos of how to beatbox so u can be his bgm and eventually u probably just start to enjoy it to

And u always start a beat and he starts busting out rhymes and it’s SO BAD. It doesn’t matter if ur good at beatboxing if vin Jin is on the track w u it’s gonna sound terrible he brings the quality down immensely but u two just cannot tell

Like after a two session ur like “omg... that was so good. We should go pro?” “Fuck yea we should we’re better than those posers” “we could rlly make it in the industry fr” no u absolutely could not

During the school festival, u sang with him and it was SO bad. Half the crowd is gonna have 2 be hospitalized but u two had FUN up on the stage

Like I said, he has absolute faith in u. All u do is right. If ur driving a car for the first time, he is going to be ur little hype man doesn’t matter if u suck. U hit a curb and he went “YES babe!! Ur killing it cant wait till u hit the road bby” Ur not allowed to touch a car for the next two years now bc he kept cheering u on when u we’re doing CLEARLY wrong things

On a plane u r looking for the bathroom like pensively and u see a handle and look back and r like “is this it???” And vin jin thinking u r all righteous will go “yea babe go for it” and u open it and u depressurizate the cabin immediately

Now both on like 5 no fly lists

He loves to do things with u, like I mentioned earlier, and things he wouldn’t do alone he’ll do w u. Like drawing alone?? Boring. Drawing w Y/N??!!! Who knows what could happen..... so much fun could ensue. Maybe he will draw u cutely. Maybe he will draw u so ugly u will be forced to engage in a fight.

He likes to play just dance w u and compete for the “greats/all star!” Little titles above, and it becomes like a Friday night ritual for u two to turn just dance on and just go at it. But sometimes he’ll get too intense and suddenly he’s actually fighting for the chance to beat u. Will trip u so u lose on purpose

He makes u listen to him sing and rap to u. And u try to leave and he hugs tightly and is like LISTEN IFS FOR U, DONT BE UNGRATEFUL and now u have to listen

He makes u a mixtape of songs he made himself and they are all considerably worse than “remember the times we had”. It’s uploaded on SoundCloud and all the comments r hate and u listen to it a lot bc u know he loves u sm he made u a mixtape ya ur gonna play that but everyone else hates it w a passion

Like the comments r like:

Daniel: well.... it’s definitely a song 😅 I’m glad you love (y/n) so much!

Duke: he’s not making it out the hood 😐

Zach: never let this man in a studio AGAIN

Mary: this should’ve stayed in the CD

(Y/N): love it! 😍

Zoe: kill your producer 💀

Mira: ...

He’s overprotective too

If someone looks at u for more than a second he’ll go “what?? U think she is hot, huh? I’ll kick ur ass fucking perv.... cmon babe let’s go”

Will throw his arm around u and streer u the opposite way of any potentially good looking ppl to keep ur eyes on him

Oh Daniel is coming?? What a coincidence u and vin Jin suddenly have to turn the corner to the other way of ur classroom for some reason

Eli is near?!!! Oh no u just got milk spilt in ur eye!! Oh no now he has to wipe ur eyes and u two have to leave the cafeteria whatever will he do

It’s not that he doesn’t have faith in u, he doesn’t have faith in other men. Like he thinks they r all competition, and doesn’t doubt ur loyalty rather doubts how good he can b for u

WILL beat someone up for u. If someone smokes while ur around suddenly his fists r swinging at them cuz even if u smoke or vape urself no one else can get that stuff in ur lungs but YOU or HIM!!

If ur crossing the street and a car almost hits u, it’s the cars fault and he’s kicking the license plate and cursing it out for almost touching u “stupid fucking piece of metal”

Is the type of boyfriend to call u when he knows ur in an Uber and be like “babe u got ur gun w u right?? Oh don’t forget ur BOMB and ur MACHETE!! Yeah just left the house I killed some ppl nbd haha anyways HRU what’s ur Uber driver like” so the driver of ur car won’t even think ab kidnapping u. He has got ur back even when u do not want it

He doesn’t want u to see his eyes, so he’ll tell you to look away so he can take his glasses off and look at u in full color in all ur glory but he never tells u WHY he’s telling u to look away u think it’s a weird thing of his, or he’s insecure ab his face which is partially true but really he’s taking his glasses off and just looking at u. Adoringly.....

He hates PDA. He loves PDA. Do u see his dilemma

Like he loves PDA but doesn’t want anyone seeing him vulnerable even u.... so he’ll hold ur hand and be like “EWWW WHAT R U DOING GET YR HAND OFF MINE”

If u take the lead THATS best bc he can blame it on u and it’s ur fault he HAS to lock fingers w u cuz u did it to him first and he has an excuse to touch u and v like u started this im just sending u ur own energy back 😤

The type to be just like blind, overwhelmed in love. Always thinks ab u, always wants to be w u, worries ab u a lot and frets over u without showing it.... he hates it and loves it to death. Despises it but wouldn’t give it up for anything in the world

Eats lunch w u in the cafeteria and if u sit w someone else u r the ultimate traitor and he will trash talk u to hide his hurt to Mary the entire lunchtime. Kinda possessive.... wants u to also only think about him

WOULDNT EVER fight u for real. Play fights occur VERY often, like pillow fights, tripping ur foot when u say a joke insulting him, grabbing ur collar but he would sooner die than lay a finger on u

Verbal fights happen a lot and if he ever like LOSES it he may lash out and almost hit u and follow thru. I don’t think he’d be able to catch himself that quickly, and if he ever did he’d regret it for the rest of his life. Literally until the day dies he will take it to his grave

He may not sputter out apologieswill just look at u incredulously and then at his hands because what had he done? What did he just do? To you???????? (Y/n))))?????? His (y/n)??? Light of his life?

Will apologize probably over text or through a note or call, and if u don’t respond he is consumed by regret and tries to find u instantly like runs back to ur place

If u forgive him he feels bad still, because does he deserve it? And he might just isolate himself for a bit bc he can’t face u and if it left a scar he is dead inside. It kills him, literally

I could go on w this but I’ll probably save it for another separate pair of hcs later 😭

If u guys ever break up he will fight for u again and won’t stop till ur back together like flowers in ur locker every day, chocolate give during lunch, etc. He wont ever give up hope that he can win u over again and be w u again. He would keep trying, when he wakes up his first thought is ur name in a cold panic bc he can’t rest easy till ur his again and he will try and show off and poorly serenade u and trash his price and be corny and cheesy to get u back

Will set up a performance w the school to let him rap w a mic during lunch for u and he’s saying bars like “(read in bad rapping voice w inconsistent beat) (y/n), love of my life, uh, without you I’d die, uh. Please won’t you take me back? Yuh, without you ima have a heart attack. (Wha!). (Y/n), love of my life, yeah, without you I’m in strife, yup! Please be mine again, (babe), I can never rest till then.”

If the embarrassment doesn’t make u take him back so he’ll pls stop, and when he stands up on the lunch tables to do a little performance doesn’t do it either, then the odd sincerity of his voice and pain in his look (even tho while rapping he sticks out his lower lip in a weird pout) definitely, hopefully will

U make everything worth it !! Truly the light of his life

I hope these were what u wanted, I just had fun w them and wrote stuff that came off the top of my head when I thought of VJ!! ❤️

[slow-button-off]

I've seen some people speculate about why Ferrari didn't try the same strategy of today (aka use the penalized driver to help the other) in Canada, and wanted to ask your opinion.

Option 1 is that Ferrari knew that in Canada Sainz had no chance vs Verstappen anyways, even with tow from Charles (since it doesn't make much of a difference)

Option 2 is that Ferrari is trying to redeem their image after all the criticism because the team screwed up Charles's races so much (I mean literally under every picture of Charles on the Scuderia's ig, there are people commenting "how will you screw up his race next?", "how will you sabotage him next?", "tomorrow his engine will explode", "they'll puncture his tires at the pit stop instead of giving him fresh ones", "he should leave this team before it's too late", etc.)

Option 3 is that something happened behind the scenes, and that even though officially Ferrari won't establish a hierarchy, they know that Charles is their best chance and are FINALLY trying to help him, not only on track through Sainz (since again, tow made almost no difference) but mostly morally. Charles couldn't stop smiling and thanking Sainz after quali, even though his help wasn't needed. He possibly doesn't even know that Binotto has made a decision, because they're still trying to spare Sainz's feelings and appease the sponsors. So he was genuinely grateful that Sainz helped him.

About option 2, Charles hyping up Sainz so much just to sway the public's perception of him and the team seems a bit fake and uncharacteristic of Charles.

My heart wants option 3 to be true.

Option 1 is probably the most likely 😂

Hiya!

Those are some good theories but it's sadly option 4:

Canada had a wet qualifying. DRS is disabled when it's wet because the cars are much harder to control and making a tow work when it's wet without compromising eachother is pretty much impossible. Had it been dry then they might've done it.

But also Canada doesn't have as long of a straight without DRS as France does and that's where the RB was so much better.

The tow this Quali might've been a little bit for the public. Maybe they thought it would've been closer than it ended up being. Max did fuck up his last lap.

But they are making a really big deal out of the tow so they are definitely using it for good publicity whatever it's actual reason was. Charles I think was and is genuinely grateful just because that is who he is.

I do find it a bit funny that a minimal tow is getting more thanks and praise than a driver holding up 2nd and 3rd for multiple laps.

[mosswillow]

Learning To Love - Steve Rogers x Reader (featuring Texas vibes)

Summary: Life always does this thing where it puts you in situations you swore you were done experiencing. You’re done having relationships, but they may not be done with you.

Warnings: Smut, feelings, angst, interrupted assault  (In relation to this, attacker going unpunished, intimidation, stalker vibes.), mature themes, 18+ adult content, slow burn?

A/N: This is a gift for @joannie95 for the Hoelentine’s Day challenge! I hope you like it. This isn’t a dark fic but it is a little heavy, there’s a healthy dollop of anxiety and feelings throughout with a happy ending.

Thanks to  @amythedvdhoarder @chrissquares and @drabblewithfrannybarnes  for putting this whole thing together, it’s such a fun challenge!

By clicking keep reading you confirm you’re over 18. This is mature content, be careful.

Unlovable.

When asked to describe yourself it’s the first word you think of. Your very first boyfriend spent months emotionally abusing you and by the end of the relationship it’s what you truly believed about yourself. Every relationship after has been the same. Your insecurities and inability to trust causing tension that eventually sabotages any chance at making things work; and with each failed relationship your view of yourself becomes more and more loathsome. Self hatred and depreciation surround you in a cloak of misery, convincing you that they’re your friends.  It’s all your fault, you deserve all of it, You’re unlovable.

So you don’t do relationships anymore. You want nothing more than to love and be loved, to hold hands and kiss under the moonlight. You want a partner to share your life with, an emotional connection that transcends yourself, creating a whole new person.

If only you were good enough, worthy enough for love.

But you’re not.

---

“No eating in here Dr. Rogers,” you chide.

Steve looks up at you and gives a smirk.

“How about a little bribe.” He holds up a bag of beaver nuggets. You roll your eyes and look around before sticking your hand in and grabbing a few puffs.

“I knew you couldn’t be perfect all the time,” He teases.

“Don’t you have an office or something?”

“I like it better here, I get to be scolded by a beautiful librarian and don’t have to deal with the other professors.”  

You’ve known Steve for years. He started teaching at the same time you joined the library staff at Rice. He’s genuine and kind. You’ve watched him help countless students outside of office hours. Everyone likes him, including you. You really like him a lot. That’s why you can’t let yourself entertain the possibility of being with him. You can’t lose him. You can’t bear the inevitable conclusion of him looking you in the eyes and telling you he’s done, that you’re too much for him.

“Well you’ll have to pack it up, they’re sending everyone home because of the hurricane.”

“It’s barely even a hurricane, more like a tropical storm,” Steve scoffs.

“Sorry, I don’t make the rules.”

You close the library down before heading to your car. The wind has already started and the sky darkens by the second. You smell the slight scent of sea air and know it’s close. The humidity, which you forgot could even get this bad, causes you to start sweating profusely and you want to get home and take a shower before the storm starts. You have a pint of blue bell waiting for you at home along with a stack of unread books, a quiet night sounds perfect.

“Hey.”

You whip around and see a familiar face, a grad student who visits the library often. Alex, you remember.

“Sorry, I just closed the library down. You'll have to wait until the school opens.”

He takes a small step forward, close enough that your personal space is violated, while at the same time far enough to where the invasion feels almost accidental.

“I’ve watched you around campus, noticed your schedule.” It’s not an accident.

It’s not unusual for students to flirt with you but this is less flirting and more just creepy.

“Oh, um yeah I work a lot.” you take a step back and he follows.

“You don’t have a boyfriend.” He states.

You stare at him and take another step back, hitting your back on your car. You grab onto the handle and he reaches out and grabs your hand.

“Hey don’t be like that. I’m a good guy. I won’t hurt you.”

You pry your hand away..

“One date, say yes.” He says, slowly pushing his body towards you.

“No, I have to go.”  

You press yourself against your car as his body goes rigid.

“You’re such a fucking tease, parading around me for weeks.”

He takes a tiny step back but places his hands against your car, caging you in. You close your eyes and freeze in fear. Your mind screams at you to move but your body just won’t.

He’s suddenly pulled away from you and when you open your eyes the only thing visible is Steve’s back.

“She said no, why don’t you move along and maybe spend some time considering why you feel entitled to women who clearly aren’t interested.”

Alex and Steve stare at each other for a few slow moments before Alex scowls at you and walks away.

“Are you ok?” Steve turns to you.

“I’m fine.” you lie, crossing your arms to avoid shaking.

Steve raises his eyebrows and looks you up and down. You’re not entirely sure how it happens but somehow you end up sitting in the passenger seat of Steve's truck, looking at your apartment building. Rain has started coming down in earnest and you dread running through it.

“Are you going to be ok alone?” Steve asks

“Are you?” You reply.

You look at eachother and your mind clears. His blue eyes stare at you with concern. Steve's hands are still on the steering wheel, clutching on like it might disappear if he lets go. You don’t want to be alone and you can tell that he doesn’t either. You want to feel safe and right now Steve is the only one who makes you feel that way. It would be so easy to invite him in, you know he would say yes.

“You don’t have a car. do you have food? Bottled water? A portable charger?” Steve asks.

“You’re the one that said it’s barely a hurricane.”

Steve sighs and releases his hands from the steering wheel.

“Just call me if you need me.”

You nod and climb out of the truck. The transition from the hot rain to your air conditioned apartment causes you to start shivering and even after you change and cover yourself in a warm blanket you still shake uncontrollably.

---

The storm lasts three days, worse than you were expecting but nothing like Harvey.

Steve shows up at your apartment bright and early a bag of conchas and breakfast tacos in hand. You climb in his truck and buckle your seatbelt. Steve eyes your book bag before backing up.

“You’re not going to work are you?”

“It’s been three days.” you reply.

He looks at you like you’re crazy and you shift uncomfortably in your seat.

“It wasn’t that bad, you got there before anything actually happened,” you say.

He opens his mouth and breathes in before biting his lip and driving you to work without another word.

Steve walks you to your car every day after work. You don’t ask him to, he just does. It’s an unsaid expectation you both have. The first week is awkward, You both say almost nothing to each other. The second week though Steve finally breaks the silence.

“How have you been?”

You shrug.  

“I filed a complaint. He’s barred from the library and promised not to come near me.” you say.

Steve purses his lips.

“Do you feel safe though?”

“No...”

Steve stiffens and you reach out and grasp his shoulder.

“Thank you for walking me to my car.”

“Of course,” Steve closes the door for you and you drive away.

Steve cracked something on your exterior. You had been pushing off the feelings before Steve asked you how you were and now you can’t push them down any longer. You get in the shower and let the warm water wash over you. At first you feel raw and then angry and then for the first time since it happened you cry. It feels silly, to let something so seemingly small affect you so much. It could have been so much worse, it’s not like anything actually happened. Maybe that’s what scares you, not what happened but the implication of what could have. He invaded your space and intimidated you, making you feel small and helpless. If it wasn’t for Steve…

You let yourself fall apart until the water turns cold, then you pick yourself up and wrap yourself in a soft towel.

You look at the woman in your bathroom mirror and see someone who isn’t you. She’s broken and hurting, her eyes swollen from crying. She looks like she’s about to fall over from exhaustion. She didn’t deserve what happened to her. She has every right to feel upset and frightened about it. She didn’t deserve to have her safety threatened, nobody deserves that.

You didn’t deserve it.

You go to work the next day and the day after that. Days turn into weeks turn into months and the fear slowly leaches out of you as you reach out for help. The woman in your bathroom mirror deserves therapy and so do you.

Steve is always there. He walks you to your car every day. He starts texting you and you text him back. You go out to dinner with him, an ethiopian place this weekend and a mediteranian food truck the next. You form inside jokes and slowly you find yourself telling Steve little things about yourself.

“Why are you single?” You ask him one day.

“I had a girlfriend, she’s not with us anymore. After she… I guess I just… I wasn’t in a place for a long time to date anyone, I cringe now at some of the things I did while dating after she passed.”

He leans back and gives you a little smile.

“I’ll know when it’s the right time to jump back in - when it’s the right person.”

You open up about your past and he listens. He tells you about growing up as the smallest kid in his class, how he was bullied and how suddenly people started treating him differently when he hit a late growth spurt. You feel closer to him than you’ve ever felt with anyone.

---

Steve walks you to your car. Tomorrow is your off day and you stop to thank him and remind him you aren’t working the next few days. He’s looking at you and shifts on his feet, you furrow your brows in concern.

“It’s Valentine's day tomorrow.” He blurts out.

You take a step towards your car, knowing where this is going and not wanting it to go any further.

Steve is the one who holds you together, his friendship helping you in so many ways. He holds power over you though, power to throw you aside and break you apart. You can’t be cast away, not again.

“If you don’t have plans maybe I can make you something for dinner at my place?”

You turn away and grab your door handle.

“Sorry, I’m busy.”

“Oh of course, yeah that’s fine.”

You watch Steve bring his hand up to his forehead in the rearview mirror as you drive away.

That evening you write the text, it’s cowardly but you don’t think you can face him.

I don’t need you to walk me to my car anymore. Thank you for your help but I think our relationship should be professional from here on out.

What? No, we’re friends. Are you ok?

You turn your phone off and take a sleeping pill only to be woken in the middle of the night by pounding on your door.

Steve stands in your doorway. His eyes are red and his hair is messy. He takes a deep breath and runs his hand through his hair.

“You weren’t answering your phone.”

“I turned it off.”

Steve stares at you and you look away.

“What is this about?”

“What is what about?”

“We’re friends. I’m not going to stop being your friend just because you don’t want a relationship. I know this isn’t one sided, that you feel the same way about me. Why are you trying to push me away?”

You cross your arms and look down and he leans over, putting himself in your line of sight.

“If I let you in I’ll get hurt,” you confess.

“Why do you think that?”

‘I..” You stutter

It’s not one moment. Not any one breakup you’ve been through. It’s not even what happened months ago during the hurricane. It’s everything. It’s self hatred, overthinking and analyzing. It’s all the anxiety and stress of life that compounds into fear. Fear of failing and of loss, of getting hurt and breaking. You feel like the only way to keep yourself up and moving is by pushing him away.

“You’re so scared of being hurt but Y/N, you’re hurting. You’re doing to yourself the very thing you’re so scared of.”

Tears start forming, Steve brings his hand up and wipes one away before pulling you into a hug and letting you cry into his chest.

He shifts his face close to your ear and speaks softly.

“I have fear too, but you know what I’m the most scared of? I’m scared of not being your friend anymore. We don’t have to be in a relationship but please don’t cut me out.”

His voice hitches and his grip tightens.

“I love you, I care about you and always will.”

You pull back and look at him, a tear escapes one of his eyes and he promptly wipes it away.

“I’m scared,” you say.

“I am too.”

Your heart beats rapidly as you look up into Steve's bloodshot eyes and see the pain that you’re feeling mirrored back at you. Steve holds power over you but for the first time you realize that you hold that same power over him. You never thought you would be willing to put yourself in a vulnerable position again but somehow, here you are. You put your hand over your heart and feel the life pump out if it and through your veins.

reaching up tentatively, you bring your hand to his face grabbing his cheek gently. You stand up tall and slide your hand behind his neck, bringing him in and kissing him. Tension releases from both of you as you press your lips together, embracing in a warm hug. You pull away and he brings you in for another kiss, this time pushing you into your apartment and kicking the door closed behind him.

It’s a flurry of body parts and heat. You’re ripping off each other's clothing. Steve kisses your neck and you bring your hand to his chest and feel down his abdomen. He groans when you get to his dick and the next thing you know you’re on the bed arching your back as he slams into you. You open your mouth to moan but nothing comes out, Instead your eyes roll to the back of your head as an orgasm washes through you and carries you away.

“Fuck, I’m coming,” He says.

He stills on top of you and then looks down making eye contact before rolling beside you and pulling you into a hug.

“That was...” Steve starts

“Amazing.” you finish.

You pry yourself from Steve and walk to the bathroom to clean up, stopping at the mirror to look at your post sex appearance.

Maybe there’s no way around it. Maybe life will stick you in situations and force you forward against your will. You weren’t trying to let Steve into your life but somehow here he is.

For the first time you don’t don’t feel like this unlovable person. You’re not scared he’s going to leave you or that you’re going to ruin the relationship.

You have a feeling you’ve never truly experienced before and now it all makes sense. Somehow in the last few months you’ve learned to love. You look at yourself in the mirror and see someone worthy.

You’ve spent all your time and energy pushing people away when you should have been building yourself up. You thought that taking care of yourself meant hiding away and putting up a wall.

Self care isn’t a bubble bath or a glass of wine and It’s not something that happens out of fear or anxiety. It’s affording yourself the same kindness and forgiveness that you would give anyone else. It’s looking at yourself in the mirror and recognizing that you deserve to love and to be loved. It’s giving yourself permission to feel however you feel without guilt or shame. It’s love in its purest form and you deserve it.

You are not unlovable.

Steve walks up beside you and kisses your temple.

“When you said you loved me...” you start.

“I meant it.”  He says quickly.

You turn and look at him, biting your lip before saying something you’ve been so scared of for so long. You kiss his cheek and smile.

“I love you.”  

[hearmyvoicee]

The Kids of Bare A Pop Opera playing “among us”

Cause my friends and I are obsessed with this game and someone had to do it.

When Among Us becomes popular at St. Celia’s, the kids can’t get enough of it. They play it underneath the desks in class, at lunch tables, hide it from father Flynn during mass, some are even brave enough to play during Sister Chantelle’s play practice. But the wonderland gang’s favorite way to play Among Us is in Tanya’s room together on Thursday nights, with popcorn, blasting music, and a ton of laughter. It becomes an unofficial tradition of theirs.

Peter: Favorite color to play as is cyan with the crown. Awful at being the imposter, SO SUS, even when he is crewmate. The gang always wins whenever he’s the imposter cause its so easy to tell. Likes getting tasks done better than voting. Favorite task is the ID code and shields. Him and Ivy usually team up, if one of them finds out the other is the imposter they wont say anything. He bought the pet option just so he could have a kid with him cause he thinks its a really cute option. Him and Tanya always chat each other song lyrics to early 2000s songs before the game and sometimes in ghost chat.

Jason: Favorite color to play as is lime with the cowboy hat. Great imposter, can easily convince the gang to turn on a crew mate, usually Nadia, but he’ll pick Peter sometimes cause he thinks its cute to watch him get all defensive and anxious at everyone, which makes Peter look even more sus. Also refuses to kill Peter as the imposter because Peter always gets so emotional over who is going to take care of his kid when he’s gone and Jason doesn’t like it when Peter’s sad. Prefers calling emergency meetings and voting to completing tasks, but still puts in an effort to get them done. In the first round, Lucas and Jason will travel together in order to not get killed off, after that it’s everyone for themselves. Favorite task is the “simon says” one.

Ivy: Favorite color to play as is pink with the flamingo floatie or the sprout. Scary good at being the imposter. She’s really good at shifting the blame onto other people and make the gang accuse each other while she sits back and watches them vote each other out. Likes chatting and voting better than tasks. Favorite tasks is the self scanner one. Sometimes she can get the gang to believe Peter isn’t the imposter just to help him out, but he’s kinda hopeless. Peter will do some of her tasks for her in return by giving him her phone. Her and Tanya are a fierce and manipulative team as imposters, people have a hard time trusting the two of them together after playing. They’ll usually do matching names too.

Nadia: Favorite color to play as is black with the plague mask. Average at being the imposter, usually people can tell if it is her because Ivy is the first one killed. She is merciless with sabotages however, the gang can never catch a break as she chooses one after the other. Very diligent about getting tasks done. Always the first one to complete her tasks. Her favorite one is clearing the asteroids. She likes the chat room and the tasks a lot. She is the only one to not trust Jason with his accusations and is sometimes successful in convincing the group he’s full of shit. Her and Matt will defend eachother if they’re accused of being imposter, unless they really do think the other is the imposter.

Matt: Favorite color to play as is red with the egg or the cheese. Meh imposter. Not as bad as Peter but pretty sus, usually vents with someone in the room on accident. Always the first one to die. It started as a coincidence but now its kinda become a running joke that he never makes it to the end of the game.Really good at figuring out who the imposter is first try and has helped the team win a lot that way. Prefers tasks over voting and the chatting. He always finishes all of his tasks no matter what, his favorite is putting the ship on course. HATES emergency meetings, he gets so annoyed whenever someone calls them.

Lucas: Favorite color to play as is brown, he usually chooses a different hat each game but his favorites are the beanie and the knife. Ruthless imposter. Goes on a killing spree. Doesn’t care as much about sabotaging, just kills and vents at every chance he gets. Pretty good at strategically using venting but gets caught killing often. Him and Nadia are the best imposter team. Between her sabotaging and his killing, they are unstoppable, the gang always loses first round if they are picked together. Gets super bored as a crew mate. Usually calls a bunch of emergency meetings just so he can stir up drama and vote people out, but sometimes just does it to annoy Matt. His favorite tasks are the really easy ones like fueling the engines cause he dosnt have enough patience for actual mini games cause he’s super paranoid he’s gonna get killed. Ghost chat is always lit if he’s dead tho.

Tanya: Favorite color to play as is purple with the devil horns. Plays imposter very smartly. Pretends to be super innocent in the chat and is a master at venting and killing without getting caught. The one thing that always gets her is she accuses innocent people and when they are ejected and not the imposter people know it’s her. Calls emergency meetings only when necessary but has a lot of fun as a crew mate. She’ll follow people around to get them nervous, usually Matt. Watches the security cameras like a hawk. Never gets a single task done. When she becomes a ghost she usually goes around and watches other people play and gets mad at people for not voting out the imposter.

[cyanisbirdmom666]

Roleplay Rules :)

Crewmate Rules

1. Do your tasks.

2. Crewmates must not instantly finish their tasks. Be doing tasks for at least 2 (real) days.

3. Do whatever task you want, just make sure you do the full thing.

a. Don’t just download. Upload. Don’t fuel One engine, fuel both.

4. If an imposter is killing you, you CAN fight back. But you’ll have a HIGH chance of death (unless the imposter stops).

5. You can have any relationship with other crewmates. Nothing is stopping you from hating, loving, or befriending them.

6. Every crewmate (and player) has a tablet full of their tasks.

a. It’s the same tablet they use for downloads/uploads and voting.

7. Crewmates can help eachother with tasks, but they can’t do tasks for eachother.

Imposter Rules

1. Kill everyone. Don’t be an imposter, if your character is against killing??? (Unless they’re like Coal and HAVE to kill to survive).

a. There are exceptions. If your character falls in love with or gets swayed by a crewmate(s) (like how Eve decided to stop killing her friends).

i. Or if there’s kids. It’s illegal in my RP to kill the kids. No exceptions.

2. If you will spare someone, have a reason. These are some examples:

a. Sky was spared by Eve. Why? Because Eve fell in love with her and made sure her team didn’t kill her. She was an intimidating person.

i. She was also a “powerful” alibi since she completely trusted Eve and Coal.

b. Bean was supposed to be spared by Sammy. Why? Because Sammy loved Bean. Sadly, this didn’t work out since Bean thought it was a good idea to tell the other two imposters that he knew their secret.

c. Rosa/Coral WERE being spared by Winter. Why? Because WINTER HAD a heart, SHE'S WASN’T GOING TO KILL A MOM AND HER KID. But she changed her mind now, and literally killed Rosa IN FRONT of Coral. Ty wasn’t helping anymore thicc he befriended Rosa and was really sad when she died.

d. Coal was spared by Bean. Why? Because he felt like it and I guess just had an instant crush?? This one is a bit more iffy since Bean (for seemingly no reason) just immediately went with Coal. Note: Bean was planning on sparing Coal BEFORE they had a good and solid relationship.

i. An example of what not to do

e. Basically everyone was spared by Clover. Why? Because... I don’t really know why??? Honestly, sometimes I forget that she was an imposter that round. EDIT: Apparently Clover was against killing. Maybe don’t make her an imposter then??? Just a thought xD

i. An example of what not to do.

3. You can fake tasks. But it won’t be guaranteed that the crewmate watching will buy the act.

4. You can sabotage.

a. Use your tablet. That’s how you sabotage.

i. Coal with his classic move of shutting off the lights. He kills in... the dark~

b. OR! Wreck it up yourself!

i. Eve wrecked Comms.

ii. Rix destroyed wires and caused the lights to go out..

5. You can talk and hear ghosts.

a. You can try to tune them out. It’s almost impossible though. Believe me. Coal tried.

6. You can betray your team (FOR A GOOD REASON):

a. Sammy betrayed Coal and Eve. Why? Because they both agreed to kill Bean and Coal killed him. Sammy loved Bean.

Ghost Rules

1. Ghosts cannot talk, write, or communicate to crewmates

2. Ghosts cannot “harm” crewmates/imposters

a. NO: Throw something sharp at them, hit them something hard, etc...

b. YES: Annoy imposters, give crewmates/imposters shivers, throw light stuff at them...

i. Light Stuff: Pens, paper airplanes, etc...

3. Ghosts cannot give “ghostly” stuff to crewmates/imposters.

a. Ghostly Stuff: Ghosts can generate anything, but if they try giving it to an imposter (or crewmate) it will disappear (poof!)

i. Example: Kami’s ukulele, Bean’s food, GHOST clothes, etc...

4. Ghosts can enter dreams

a. NO: Talking in dream, spoiling the imposter(s), giving clues about who killed them, etc...

b. YES: Touch them in the dream, follow them around, do anything (except the NOs), etc...

5. Ghosts can pick up stuff

a. NO: A desk, chair, cafeteria table, storage box, etc...

b. YES: Pens, pencils, knocking over medium weight stuff (not picking it up though), etc...

6. Ghosts can talk to imposters and other ghosts

7. Ghosts can hear imposters and crewmates

8. Ghosts can remember past rounds and backstories

9. Ghosts can try to describe an imposter’s backstories or their own, but if it is too revealing (Example: Bean trying to tell Coal that they knew each other before) it will sound like static.

10. Ghosts can float anywhere, but like in the game, they can only be in the ship or in surrounding areas.

11. Ghosts will spawn in Cafeteria in about 5 minutes after their death

12. Ghosts could eat conjured food, but nothing would be digested (it is ghost food), it would just disappear.